If you were with me 30 years ago.......
You would have seen a very different individual someone who didn’t smile a lot and someone who felt like she was just existing and not living. I was a desperate, vulnerable single mother lacking confidence and with minimal hope for the future. Equally distressing was the fact that I had no money to even plan one. I had been in a long abusive relationship which I thought would never end and I was at a time in my life where my confidence was at an all-time low. Thankfully my story didn’t end there, and I was fortunate enough to get out but not in a way that I ever expected.
Fast forward 10 years and you’re looking at a very different woman, a woman who is experiencing a newfound freedom and a woman now able to pursue her dreams. However, I was scared and even unsure about what the next phase of my life was going to look like.
Yes, I was feeling free, but I was still not living life on purpose nor was I confident enough to really go for what I thought I wanted. The one thing I did have was my faith. I was always passionate about helping people and knew I was naturally gifted at it because for years I had listened to other people’s problems, given them coaching and I was seeing massive unrecorded results.
I thought about this as a possible career move helping people and getting paid for it, one morning as I sat having a cup of tea at home and checked in with my sister who told me to go for it! So I did, I rolled up my sleeves up, set some goals, changed my mindset and worked hard so I could begin providing a better life for me and my children.
I locked myself away literally and studied like a dog for the next three years and eventually graduated from university with three degrees, in social work, counselling psychology and christian ministry and leadership, Wahoo!! I have now started the journey of turning myself into the perfect employee. Yes employee! But as time passed, I found that I became seriously unhappy as I was still penned in a box and sometimes it felt no different from my past having someone control me and crushing my creativity and my spirit.